well, it took a tiger torch, a new battery and a hero to start the truck. With a fire under the truck, a $100.00 battery later and gerald's frozen fingers he was able to save the day, well, actually the week, or to be more honest probably the whole friggin month. It is apparent that I rely much to heavily on my truck. We actually had to walk, horror of horror, to the convenience store to purchase milk and bread. Actually, I made Arianna walk. Honestly it feels much better to know that my truck works again, Crystal is coughing and hacking and at least now I know we can go see the medical professionals if need be.

2001 Jimmy rendered immobile by -50 degree weather, dead, useless battery. Bonnie Tyler's "I Need a Hero" seems relevant right about now. Reality check, will probably need to rely on my own personal resources rather than that of some duffus masquarading as a hero. hahaha

brrrrr, I believe it has warmed up to -47 from - 51. Somehow it doesn't feel much different. Even my 4 x 4 was grumpy this morning, refusing to go into drive from park, and howling mightily when pressure was put on the brake, bumping along as though driving over a thousand speed bumps with each rotation (?) of the square tires, feebily attempting to grasp some resemblance of warmth and breathe it into the cab. I in my red scarf, purple mittens and green winter jacket driving in the frozen icicle position. Not a pretty picture, one holds out only a small breath of hope for tomorrow.

Well, what does one really know, what wisdom does one gain with age. The wisdom that in the winter time it is good to check the weather when planning travel and better yet travel in the day time.

I watched the move Bruce Almighty tonite. That certainly was a waste of time the only pitifully amusing parts were the dog scenes. The other movie we rented which we still have to watch is Chicago. I heard from an old friend today, via email. Old friends invokes sadness in me, as it seems as though too much time passes between communications. In a world where keeping in touch is simple and faster than any time in history, it seems that the reality is the easier it is to keep in touch the less we do so. Isn't that right Grant.

Well, all appears to be well, arianna is off to watch a basketball game, crystal is playing mario sunshine and gerald is yakking on the phone. The yak a strange but interesting creature, truly a speciman with a personality. yakity yakity, yak, yak.

well, the business cards are printed, not just for one business but for two. PaperWorks Consulting and Priority Staffing. I have proposals to write tonite for PaperWorks and tax registration forms to fill out for Priority Staffing. Then I think I shall order pizza and play zelda.

well, I got a new mouse today. It is an optical mouse. It seems to be somewhat lighter and a little finicky. Sometimes it just bounces off the screen as though it tripped and fell. Perhaps it is not an optical mouse at all, but a blind mouse. Perhaps I require three of them as in three blind mice to properly execute any mouse procedures. Maybe I should have ordered a tail less mouse. As in, cut off their tails with a carving knife, three blind mice. Do you suppose they are now employed by Microsoft? Oh well, I am sure I will develop some level of expertise with my new mouse at some point.

productive meetings are always such as joy to be involved in. business opportunities and collaboration meeting today went well. we will be establishing a new training program and our business mentorship program is becoming a hit. that will bring more work to the front lines though, so the next few weeks will be busy. our research project kicks off in the next week or two as well. hmmmmm it appears I will be very busy. When will I find time to finish reading my consulting book.

Ah, the decisions one must make. What to do, What to do. My little consulting company may be on the verge of becoming to hectic for my part time involvement. But I have great fear, of letting my full time paid job go, just to go on my own. Am I concerned that I may have to rely on myself to make the same amount of money as a full time consultant that I do now. You bet. I could use some real world perspective here. How does one become brave enough to move from employee to the sole owner/manager of a company. Perhaps it is the knowledge that there are no gaurantees that is holding me back. Although strangely enough the no guarantee rule has never stopped me in any other aspect of my life, in fact I am often motivated to act just because there is no guarantee. Maybe I need a business mentor. Perhaps I will find one.

Well it seems very lonely here in the world that encompasses the internet. A world devoid of comments is somewhat like having a conversation with yourself. Although having a conversation with yourself can be somewhat amusing particularly when driving a vehicle, as the people who meet you on the road tend to have mixed reactions. I must go back to reading my books, when I went to the library the other day I was very optimistic about how many books I would read. So far I haven't actually finished any and they are due back next week. Perhaps a good soak in the bath with my 10 ways to be a better consultant book will be quite relaxing.

aaarg, my crazy printer, whoops, machines can't be crazy only people. Just the same it appears to be crazy, getting hot when it shouldnt, stopping to rest when it shouldnt, printing what it wants to not what it is told to, gee, seems crazy. Oh well, I suppose I will simply have to resign myself to the fact that I will still be printing tommorrow night.

Today the snow was falling combined with gusts of wind, somewhat of a blustery affair actually. Many were pleased, those who ski and snowmobile, some were not, those who shovel and plow. I personally don't mind the snow as long as it is not interferring with my ability to drive. I will be driving tomorrow so hopefully the snow will abate until late in the day. I am sure the day will unfold as it should be irregardless of my desire for a clear day. Although with a positive thought process and a strong focus on experiencing a clear driving day, I could just make it happen. Ya think.

Weary, would be a good word to describe my demeanor at the moment. Weary from staring at the computer for the last couple of hours, developing marketing information for a public relations campaign, should have worked on it earlier. Hindsight is 20/20 they say. oh well, time to call it quits.

Fifteen minutes till bedtime. That's what I say every night before eight oclock when it's just about time for Crystal to go to bed. Sometimes it seems more like fifteen minutes until I have time to myself, or fifteen minutes until I need to work on grants and proposals to further my consulting business, these days time revolves around Crystal's bedtime. With having had four children who range in age from 24 to 5 it seems as though it has always been someone's bedtime other than mine. How strange my house will be one day when this last child is grown and gone.

currently reading the Productive Narcissist, Micheal Maccoby - after experiencing the real life of an unproductive narcissist for the last ten years, one must glean a small bit of hope from this publication in the sense that if there are productive narcissists perhaps the unproductive ones can be meandered in a more productive direction. Ah yes, one can only hope. But then what is life without hope, nothing more than the physical rising and setting of the sun? Perhaps.

somewhere in the universe are all of the thoughts of all of the people of all time....