crazy making, what a day, what a whole lot of days, do I want this, and why. Maybe after he is physically gone, he will take the crazy making behavour with him and I will be able to regain control of my thoughts and my behavour. Maybe I will be able to let go of whatever it is that keeps me wanting him back. What is that I get back any way, more crazy making behaviour, constant arguing, and devaluing of me and my opnions and values, what is it that is so attractive to me about this relationship. The pain? Certainly not any type of love, that is healthy. oh me or my, at the end of it all there must a reason.